2010 is coming in less den 24 hours but i dun have the feeling of leaving . 2009 has been a year with lots of laughter , stress & of course , tears . think back remind me of time when i was in school . sleeping during lesson , laughing damn loud , making a fool our of myself . although our friendship seems to be further apart , but things still get back to how it was in the end . hoping going back to school everything will be fine . lots of things to tell everyone but i dun know how to say lehh with my broken english . LOL .

Our friendship has been 4 years or can counted as 5 years le bah since we were sec 1 .

Remember the first day of school where Tricia kick my chair & when i turn around she smile at me say intro herself & also during sec 1 camp , i share my sleeping bag with uu , shermaine & siewhwei . still keeping the paper with ur house number on it with me :) time passed & we have been tgt in the same class for 4 years & next year , we both are still in the same class . haha . thanks for being there when i was crying & uu tried to cheer me up :)

Gwenda , although we wasnt tat close but overall , uu are still my nuer ? hahas . ur result is always the best amoung us & during sec 3 , we spilt classes . uu always remind me of an apple cuz when uu cried ur whole face turn real red :) time passed & our friendship seems to be tearing apart . but seriouly , i was shocked when uu & liqing said sorry on my facebook wall . hope we still can get back to how we used to next year :)

Liqing , always the most cheerup girl amoung us . uu were the one who always cheer us up when we were sad . remembering those days when we were in the same class , uu always draw on ur table & even wall . those days were really damn relax & happy . thanks for coming over to my house to help me with the hearts . aiyah , thanks for everything cuz too much liao . see uu next year in the same class :)

My dearest Diana <33>

Thanks for everything diana . uu were always there for me when im super down . thanks for those days in school when im all alone & uu are the one who accompany me . thanks for everything uu did & of course ur parents . thanks for driving me home & helping me makeup . if its wasnt them , think i have vomited many time on my way home during N lvl . hope to see uu in school next year although we are not in the same class anymore but we still can spend recess time tgt like how we used to . really gonna miss the time with uu around <33

i feel like blogging but idk wat to blog bout . stay at home ytd as im broke i didnt get to go to supperclub . kinda sad . feel like going back to school but thinking of all the hard work i have to put in really make me feel scare . but think going back to school is the only way to stop me from thinking of other things . chatted on phone with sam & arhhjingg last night . after hanging , i cant get to sleep although i know im tired . brushing up some of my feelings & told myself i have to cheerup . i dun used to be so weak , dun used to be so lonely , dun used to be down but ever since problems in school , i turn out to be like this . i turn to be so optimism . i think alot & get myself hurt in the end . i told myself not to be like tat again but sorry , i cant do it . i wish to go bac kto the cheerful side of me but i cant seems to pull myself back . i seems to be laughing happily but sometime , i dun think its my real self . i used to hate being alone , being lonely . but now , i seems to loved it . wanna be alone & let my mind settle down for a min . if there is a big field for me to run , i would & of course i will scream out everything on my mind .

going down to batok later to take my school skirt . feel like going down to pick meihui but idk if i should . tmr is the last day of 2009 . lots of things happen in this year & really wish this upcoming year would be better .

watched Avatar ytd night with javier , sam , arhhjing , jonathan & one more i dk is who . i get to see him again . WEEEEEEE~~~~ train to batok to meet sam then talk cock alot on our wat to yinhui house . waited for yinhui & went to buy my batt . exp can . den trained down to jurong to pei yinhui wait for zhiming . after tat me & sam trained down to ps to meet javier . mafan de him . i having dinner till half have to go pick him up . after dinner waited for arhhjingg to come den walked to cathy for our movie . its a nice show afterall . but the starting part where the wild dogs or smth trying to kill him or wat scare me bahh . those creature like monster sia . after movie cabbed down to chinatown for supper & played truth or dare , or can say its all dare lah . so damn malu sia . SHHHH ~~ only those ppl there know wat happen :x walkwalk den cabbed home . sorry guys have to make uu guys walk back . reached home bath & cant really get to sleep . keep waking up for no reason . cant go for today supperclub although i really feel like going & its supperclub lehh . the club which i think its the best other den powerhouse . but thinking it again , going there doing the same things & spending money on cab fair really make me feel so tired . actually , i wanna go cuz he is going ... OMGGG !!! but too bad , i cant make it . tmr is the last day of 2009 . wondering where are we going to countdown . wanted to go meihui house but now cancel . siann . sure is places where i need to spend money again :(

FIRSTLY , HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO
FUCHEN & MY DEAREST MEIHUI <33

wat i wanna say was all written down on the card , hope uu like it & enjoy urself today <33>& head to topone while sam & junchin go get the cake . its a ktv luhh & its quite different from the others . got stage , smoke , 3mic & disco ball . have lots of fun inside & they said i drink food juice also will high . keep running to toilet cuz drink way too much le . spent 476 ( if im not wrong ) at the ktv . after tat went over to mac to play truth or dare . SUPERDUPER HENG I NVR KANA AT ALL . NOT EVEN ONCE . SUPER HENG . if not im going to be dead meat . yingmei & yinhui go off first as yingmei is not feeling well . follow by sam & meihui cuz sam is having a bad toothache . left me , jiexin , arhhjing & jeff waiting for the first train . was shock tat the very first train also full of ppl sia . reached home , bathed & wanted to blog but cam no batt cant upload pics ><> sleep but i have to pull myself up if not at night i cant sleep le . photo will be on facebook .

SECONDLY , IM GONNA MISS UU GUYS <333>

school is reopening & some of uu are getting back to work & im sure our time spending tgt is going to be lesser & lesser . im gonna miss those time when we play tgt , ton tgt & stuff . lots of things to say but so little time . time really flies so fast tat our holiday is going to end . this upcoming year i really dun have the time to play anymore . O lvl is coming & i have less den half a year to prepare when im so fcuking weak in studies . jiayouss junchin , yingmei , yinhui & me who are taking O lvl next year .

To samantha : thanks mama for giving me so much laughter whenever im with uu . uu always love to disiao me & make me so damn ps infront of arhhjing . thanks alot for taking care of me in genting when im drunk & im sorry to push uu away when uu tried to come over to help me . LOVEUULOTS

To meihui : thanks laogong for bring arhhjing out so tat i know him :x yup , like i said i show uu attitude & stuff , uu didnt gaveup on me & staying by my side no matter wat happen . really going to miss the time spending with uu . LOVEUULOTSTOO

To jeff : thanks daddy for helping me in genting when im drunk like shit ass . uu never fail to make me laugh . jiayouss in ur study alright & save more money so tat we can go out have fun again next time ^^

To yinhui : thanks alot for the present uu brought from korea . hope uu like the present i brought for uu fron genting . uu too , never fail to make me laugh with ur cold jokes . gonna miss uu lots alright . jiayouss for our upcoming O lvl & like wat uu said , we are going poly tgt in 2 years time <33 & also tgt with arhhjingg . cannot leave me aside .

LASTLY , TO UU ONGJUNCHIN (:

how long we know each other arhh ? a month ? i also dk . wondering when can see uu again when we live so far & we gonna study real hard next year . sorry for making you so ps in genting infront of the malaysia friends & also hitting uu with the mic just now . was shock cuz ur face suddenly change . jiayouss orhh ~ & also , get well soon alright . go see a doctor if haven recover in a few days time . im gonna miss spending time with uu babyy . miss the time when we go clubbing tgt , going over to koven & uu helped me to carry the books , ton at sharif place & uu lend me to cover when i was freaking scare of the movie , patting me to sleep in genting & cheering me up . lastly , im gonna miss uu lots man <33

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEEPOS <33
so fast jiu xmas le . time really pass real fast . went out ytd night cuz sam & arhhjingg say wanna go club . tot it was my very last club before school reopen on the 4th jan but ended up we didnt go in cuz there were way too much ppl . party box should have choosen a bigger place when its christmas eve . went to eat at laopasa den cab down to V3 . wanted to go in but in the end nvr . meihui have to reach home by 3 so she went off first . left me , sam , arhhjingg & jiexin . walk all the way to chinatown & wondering where to go . walkwalk eateat all & jiexin went off first . 3 of us walk & talk cock till 6 plus den bused home . reach home all go sleep liao but i still come online till 930 den sleep . sleep all the way to 7+ den wakeup . wondering if i can sleep later . tmr going out to celebrate meihui's 18 bd . wondering wat to get for her & wat to wear when she gave us the theme of ' dolldoll ' . tmr there is also club . i wanna go , really . just before school reopen pls . cuz when school reopen , i used com like how i used to , cant sleep like pig , have to pick up tuitions & really need to work hard cuz its sec5 . a year tat i cant play with . uploaded pic on fb . wanted to upload on blog but think it will be very long . Yuki Yaki pic & Xmas pic <33>

IM FINALLY BACK FROM MALAYSIA (:
trip to malaysia was okay lahh , but i dun really enjoyed myself except KL . stayed over night at sam's place they night before we set off . jeff daddy was there when i reached . talk cock & order mac as we where hungry . slept for an hour & its time to set off .

DAY 1
bused to KL & check in hotel . was having some problems bout the hotel thingy but its was settle by meihui's arhhyi , auntie amy (: the room was quite big luhh , can run around . put down our things & when to times square for dinner . its simply sux luhh . i dare not eat japanese food in malaysia again . started to shop around . did medicure tgt with meihui & sam . jeff will have to wait for us & listen to the 3 of us kp . LOL . brought a heels & some clothings . went back to hotel & off to lady street for supper . was okay lahh . jeff cant stop eating lahh . he eat so damn much can . went back hotel & shared room with sianning , meihui , fuchen & junchin . feel weird luhh . cuz they all cousin & im the only outsider . the first to fall asleep as arhhjing was watching football & tat make me so bored luhh . wakeup & found at arhhjing was sleep right on the floor beside the bed . open eye jiu see dao him . shocked dao can .

DAY 2
had breakfast at kfc & started to shop again . but awhile nia cuz we have to rush for the bus up to genting . nearly fall asleep on my way up . reach there waited for the guys awhile & the hotel room was SUPERDUPER long can . few hours leh . went around to meet sam's malaysia friends & tat makes me laugh like mad can . 3 joker , arhhjingg , jeff & fuchen . they simply make me laugh like fcuking madd . had our dinner & when to club for the first night , not really tat fun as singapore luhh . went back hotel quite late & everyone was sleeping liao .

DAY 3
move to another room as there will be a extra room tat day . me , meihui & sianning used tat room . feel bit scary cuz i was sleeping all alone on one bed & the window was just behide me . went to ktv & sang like shit can . my voice simply sux on tat day . went back hotel to take a nap & when i wokeup , i realise im all alone in the room . went downstair to walkwalk & brought things to eat & went back to auntie linda room . meihui they all came over to find me as they found tat i was missing when she went back to take her jacket . walk around & sit there slack . meihui & sianning go back room first den left me , arhhjing , sam , sera , jeff , justin & mickey . we started to play truth or dare . was like shit luhh but its fun . i have to jump down from a chair & act like a monkey . LOL . but its better den arhhjing who have to dance with mickey with cheesy song if im not wrong . tat makes everyone laugh like mad luhh . went back to hotel at 4 i think .

DAY 4
can say its the last day for us . wakeup & pei meihui over to send auntie amy off . meetup with the rest & off we go . found tat justin took off tat day just to accompany us . wanted to go theme park but never go as some of them dun wanna go . went for shopping & brought until i no money can . LOL . went back to hotel & rest & had dinner at pizza hut . thanks auntie linda for the dinner :D after tat we went to club again & i was drunk again tgt with meihui but dun think she is tat drunk as i . LOL . i cried & shout like mad dog . LOL . anyway thanks arhhjingg for patting me to sleep & sorry to say those things luhh .

LAST DAY
its the last day . feeling bit sad luhh cuz we have to leave genting & cant see our malaysia friends . miss my son , yuanyuan , justin , laughing gas , arhhgua , yiqi & mickey . sorry didnt take pic with all of uu as my cam not in a good mood . had breakfast at their working place & off we go . was shock tat justin & mickey gave each of us a card . thanks alot . hope uu guys enjoyed urself these few days . bused back to singapore & cab home after tat . went down to batok for my class bbq & meetup with yinhui to pass her her present . hope uu like it okay . sorry cuz idk how to choose gift .

overall , this trip was still okay lahh . but , i didnt really enjoy . feel really sad bout the theme park thing cuz i went to genting 3 times & i nvr get a chance to go to outdoor theme park . i dun blame uu guys . but i will really consider if i should go genting again . sorry . pic will be uploaded other days :D

ITS PARTY TIME PPL !!!

finally , i got back my N lvl result . was shocked to see mdm chen actually came back to see us . to see how we did for our N lvl . really miss her lots man . result is better den wat i expected & but im still not happy with the points i get . but overall , im happy like hell can . cheerup alright ppl who cant make it . after taking result , went to lot 1 to meet mummy & i hug her & cried as i dun think i make them proud . they said i did way better den my bro & they are really happy tat im going sec 5 but still , i dun think this way . i really have to work hard next year & i promise i will really try my best . treated them pizza hut as i gotten my pay . eat till damn full can . BROTHER !!! UU OWNED ME MY DS . UU SAID IF I GET INTO SEC5 UU WOULD BUY IT FOR ME !!! I WAN A PINK ONE :) reach home started packing my stuff till now still haven finish & yet im here blogging . will be leaving tmr morning to malaysia KL & genting early in the morning . going over to sam house later to stay overnight . i really hope i could settle down my feelings & enjoy this holiday . grats sam for getting top in ur school , arhhjingg & monkey for getting into sec5 too . those tat cant make it , its not the end yet . uu guys might not be good in studying but im sure uu guys are good in other things ^^ gtg soon . will miss uu guys real lots . sorry i cant make it for my class bbq on 23 dec . hope uu guys enjoy urself (:

SEC5 , HERE I COME (:

so damn tired & worried . now its 6.52 & im still awake . just now went to st james . haiishh , seriously its not fun at all . lots of problem sia . arhhjingg kana ban for going in but still manage to seek in later on . see some superduper unhappy stuff . sorry arhhjingg if i showed uu attitude . sorry to _ _ _ tat i shouted at uu & stuff . cabbed home & feel bit regret cuz they go eat sia . im so hungry & have to wait till my maid wakeup & cook for me . thanks anyway . reached home & i started to feel so damn stress & scare . i really dun wanna know my result . i know its going to fail anyway . like i said to arhhjingg , if i pass , i can take train to his house & say hello den come back home again . really . but its cant seems to be happening . anyway , someone told me to rest awhile so okay bahh . have to be good girl mahh . LOL

ARHHJINGGG !!! DUN LISTEN TO WAT SAMANTHA SAY . SHE TALK COCK DE !!!

im so damn tired ~~ stay at home ytd as i wanna be a good girl to let mama & papa happy :x went out with my lovely today . meet meihui & samantha at jurong den train-ed down to lavender to take meihui passport . waited for so long luhh . but its okay as we dun have anything to do . after tat went to orchard for dinner . had coffee club ^^ the food there are quite nice luhh . walk around & sit at centerpoint de mac . wanted to catch a movie but didnt as no more time slot le . train-ed to bugis to meet arhhjingg . went to shesha again . meihui have to go early so we left at 11 . train-ed home & was damn tired luhh .

thinking bout tmr powerhouse make me feel bit sad luhh . cuz i really dun have the mood to go party at this time when my N lvl result will be out the very next day . im really scare to take my result & i know im gonna fail it for sure . i dun have any confident in myself . feeling so damn scare + sad + STRESS !!! thinking tat im going to malaysia the very next day after we get our result really make me no mood for holiday . i wonder if im able to sleep tmr . im really feeling so scare . diana texted me & said she feel they way too . i guess tat it bahh . wat done is done . but im for sure gonna cry when i get my result . even if its not in front of my friends but when im alone at home . mummy & daddy will nvr know how much effort i put in & the most suay thing is tat i fall sleep when im having my papers . they keep saying i nvr study but i already did my best . even if i go to ite , its not a bad thing . at least ite wan me & its the path i chosen . i will have to face it myself .

found this pic on the internet & found tat its quite nice . idk wat is happening to me these few days . my mood keep goes up & down & i really cant get to sleep at night . maybe its mood swing bahhs . im feeling so tired & i no matter how loud i scream , i still cant let my feelings out . i really need sometime to cool myself down . sorry to ppl who are around me tat i show attitude to . its just tat i cant control my own temper . i really hate when night fall cuz its time when im really alone , really lonely . my phone is totally silent & the msg i really wish to see didnt appear . im wondering wat if this happen in genting ? i talk to RichCOKER ( my audi friend ) today & he told me relax . treat him as a friend & try to talk to him . but i really dk wat to talk about . i really dun feel good when i keep hearing ur msges from other ppl handphone . im not here to say anything but im saying the truth is tat im really jealous . but dun cuz of me affect ur relationship with him alright even if its just friend .

To Meihui :
sorry laogong , idk how to cheer uu up at this point of time when uu are feeling really down . i know uu are having lots of problems but dun worry alright . i can be ur listening ear . everything will be fine , im sure . if uu really wanna end tat relationship , den end it . tat is all i can say . im sure uu can find someone even better den him . anything just give me a call alright . cheerup <33

idk wat to post at all . im feeling so ..... alot feelings . it should be happy . sad , jealous or wat ? i know im jealous . i know im but ... haiishh . i really have no mood to blog lahh . sorry ppl .

im feeling so dame ... i dk how to explain it . i simply have no mood to do anything even audi . i dun feel like online , i dun feel like eating , i dun feel like going out . i just wanna sleep as long as i like & let time pass . im not tired . i just dun feel like anything . cuz when im awake , uu are always in my mind . i told myself last time to stop after talking on phone with mama . sorry mama . went out to meet samantha & meihui at vivo last night . thanks daddy for driving the there . walk around vivo then train down to paya lehba ( idk how to spell lahh . ) to meet arhjingg . meihui is feeling upset & trying to fix her reltionship . cheerup okay . after tat we found tat we miss the last train . i was like JIALAT LAHH . GG.COM . cuz daddy say if i dun go home early , i wont be able to get my weekly pocket money . but lucky thanks to meihui , samantha & arhjingg . thanks for the cab & sorry to make uu all walk so far . but not i say wan walk de hor . is mama say de :x but still , im sorry . reach home online & my fcuking internet got problem again . so i have to call mama to talk to let the time pass . talktalktalk den no mood le . sorry mama , dun feel bad or wat hor . im okay ^^ after hanging , i simply have no mood to sleep & i cant get to sleep too . idk wat im thinking . i just sit dere & listening to the same old song over & over again & i wakeup today at 430 . i was like wtf . half a day is gone . GOOD . i dun have to think so much . haiishh . will be meeting mama later for dinner but i seriously dun feel like going out . im sorry .

its 433am and im still awake . ppl are sleeping so soundly & yet im still here blogging . i cant get myself to sleep . i know if this goes on , on my trip to genting im going to be so dead . really have to change the timing im go to bed .

something is bothering me since ytd . idk why i keep thinking . maybe its truth . but im bit sick & tired of relationship . so friends is still the best . wat else can compare to friendship ? i nvr used to think this way & ur the first one . maybe uu are special or maybe it cuz ... reason cant be said out or else everyone will know & i guess uu will be avoiding me . i enjoy myself talking to uu & spending time with uu . but i guess time flies way too fast tat im not able to catch up . i really feel like giving uu a text but idk wat to say to uu . its like speechless ? maybe . stay happy alright . meet up soon ^^

feeling so tired & yet cant get to sleep . THIS FEELING SIMPLY SUX !! laughh . samantha mama & arhhjingg arhh . no more copying me okay . i will have to charge uu guys for copyright liao arhh . hahas . cant wait for the trip to genting . its just 6days away only . was lucky luhh . daddy didnt scolded for ytd thingy cuz i came home at 10+ or maybe 11 . not sure bout the time but im damn sleepy lahhs can . had gastric problem again . GRR !! hate it can . slept at 12 & wokeup at 530+ . online & found tat arhhjingg sleep longer den me . laughh . pig lahh uu . hehes .

gonna try to get to sleep no matter wat . ><

its so early in the morning & everyone is still sleeping . currently at sharif house cuz we stay over night here with samantha , siti , arhhjing & I-Z . watch a horror movie just now . thanks arhhs arhhjing for letting me to cover . idk wat the hell im thinking & cant get to sleep . i really dk . dun ask me question like why cant sleep ? wat uu thinking ? SERIOUSLY IDK . smth is bothering me . i see a future tat wont happen . maybe is i think way too much or smth bahhs .

To samantha : uu dun anyhow think arhhs . cuz uu will always anyhow think de . den later make me damn fcuking ps .

im so sleepy lahhs can . wondering wat time im going home later , wondering how am i going home later .

To all who stay overnight : im sorry to be passing the flu around . go home & rest okay . im really sorry bout it :(

Monday
went to meet sam as we were going down to bugis to fixed her cam . thanks me arhhs cuz i know how to read tat map . if not uu have to spend ur money on cab again ^^ after tat trained down to dk where ( dk how to spell lahhs . ps ) to meet junchin for dinner . had just acia for dinner . after dinner we decided to catch a movie but all the timing was cmi lahhs . so went to shesha . i dun think its nice lahhs . dun really like it . leave at 10+ & home sweet home

Tuesday
went out with my lovely samantha mummy today . meet her at batok & train down to kovan to meet junchin there . my sis was tagging along as i need to help her buy her books . went to wing tai to collect sam's pay . made lots of sound there & was laughing like hell . after tat went back to heartland mall for dinner . had KFC for dinner & went to popular to get my sis's books . thanks arhhs junchin for helping to take . after tat junchin went home as he wants to change his clothes as he is going down butter fac . we girls then trained to sam house as my sis wanted to go . leave at 10pm . was damn tired . actually wanted to go butter fac . but thinking tat its small + i dun have the money to go so forget it . wait till i come back to malaysia den go party bahhs ^^ reached home & online . audi & chatting on msn with zhihao , my sunzi . & this is wat he said & make me damn happy lahhs can .
To zhihao : arhmah no badbad k . i got draw saying ' arhmah love uu hor ' . arhma best okay .

Feeling so damn sleepy now can . wanna turn in soon . goodnight readers <33

10 more days to malaysia <33

went to watch new moon ytd . its so damn fcuking nice lahhs can . watch with my beloved monkey . thanks for giving me to bully luhhs :D sorry samantha mama . was unable to meet uu cuz i watch rushing for the movie . watched it at cine . was far lahhs . plus we watch the 9pm one . so ended was like going 12 + i think . took night rider home as 190 de last bus go le . reached home at 1 + . when to sleep at 6 + & wokeup at 3++ . audi the whole day . went to yewtee at night & audi till now . talking on phone with samantha & msging my beloved monkey & zhihao . going down to bugis tmr to fixed samantha de cam . hope it will be done before we go malaysia okay . haiishh . weijie's mom said N lvl will be out on the 15 dec . which is like 2 more weeks only . why isit before i go oversea . spoil my mood sia . haiishh . im sure going to let my parents disappointed . im sorry mummy & daddy & even my brother . i already did my best . but i know the result tat is coming out is not as good as uu guys expected . sorry .

went out with my lovely today . enjoyed myself anyway . meetup with meihui laogong & yinhui at batok first . sorry i was veryvery late . cuz uu all say meet 430 but 5 i was still at home . so sorry . trained to jurong to meet ruth & trained to marina . went to yuki yaki for dinner . quite nice lahhs . fun part is tat we where able to ' fried ' our own icecream . thanks to jeff daddy for helping us to make our icecream so successful . samantha & randell came bit later but they still able to enjoy the dinner with us . happy 10th month for the both of uu . stay happy alright . no more quarrel liao hor & randell try to spend more time with mama okay ^^ walk around like zombie like tat cuz we all have no idea where to go . at last they say go pool . jeff daddy make a move first as he is meeting his friend . they guys went for pool while me , ruth . meihui & yinhui play carcar . i won i won :D li hai hor . meihui also not bad lahhs . is i play cheat go bang her den her car fly den i win de :x after pool den train home le . tired luhhs . meeting my beloved monkey tmr to watch new moon . cant wait sia . wanting to watch this movie like hell but no one wan accompany me even tat NGWEIJIE . humph . see uu tmr monkey :D

went out with my beloved today . cant wait to go malaysia with them can . but wasted yinhui not coming as she is going korea . will be missing uu alright . dun forget my present for korea can le & mama de present with 2 more zips :x had lots of laugher today . had dinner at buger king & i realise tat i seem to be eating lesser den wat i used to . thanks mama for helping me to finish . laugh . chat with meihui awhile & went to nearby block to slack while waiting for meihui to finish her work . tat was when the fun part comes . yinhui make us laugh like mad can . tooks pictures , those blurblur one is mama de lousy phone :x but better den nth :) will be going down to jurong point again tmr cuz mama wan to buy her clothes & i need to return meihui her jacket if not she is going to be freeze to death . laugh .

human do changed & i think i should . im sorry for doing tat monkey & i know how am i to uu le . uu can say im thinking too much again or wat ever it is . i used to be foolish & i always think ahead of how other feel & tends to forget bout my own . it seems to be a good point but also a bad one cuz im way too sensitive , i always think way too much .

im born like tat & i cant help it . im scared of hurting the others but in end , the one getting hurt is always me . after all these while , i think i really should change . lessons has taught me how to let go & now i have to change my personally ( wonder if i spell correct ) . if im meant to uu , den im sorry . if im way too nice to uu , pls tell me . i dun wan to be the good guy who always think of how other ppl feel & getting myself hurt like fucking shit & no one cares or even know bout it . i still cry like a baby but i promise to be strong .

for wat uu msg just now , really hurt & i admit im . im way too sensitive & im the way uu said . for wat i did , im sorry . i didnt know uu hate ppl for doing tat . tat all i can say .

so many things to blog . hope blogger no more problem & let me post .

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when to supperclub with my dearst meihuil laogong , samantha mummy , yinhui babe & arhhjing ^^ actually is go V3 , thai club lai de . but smth happen so we go supperclub instead . was bit dulan lahhs . cuz they told me i will have a guest list but in the end i have to pay . haiishh . but i think its th best of all bahhs . cuz not many ppl like other club & got bed sia . can lie there & sleep de . cabbed home . have to use my nets to pay again . sian . my bank no money le lahhs . sadded :( reach home online till 6+ den sleep .

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morning accompany my bro to sim lim square to repair his com . thanks for the bobo chacha . waitied for quite sometime & cabbed home . reach home rest not even an hour have to go out again . cabbed down to IMM with family to celebrate my grandma birthday . went to long beach for dinner . the food there was okay lahhs . cant finish lahhs . too much le . way too full . cabbed home again & bro say the com is not fixed . have to go down again . sianed .

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went down to sim lim square again to fixed the com . waitied even longer then ytd . thanks for my lunch + dinner arhhs kor ^^ he have to rush back to camp so cab home . sorry meihui laogong . was unable to accompany uu . will makeup for it next time <33

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last day of nov le . xmas is coming . weeeee~~ will be going oversea with meihui laogong & samantha mummy again this year to malaysia genting . looking forward for it . stayed at home the whole day . audi & chatted on msn . bored . i missed my working days , althought its very tiring but its way better den staying at home doing nth but just playing audi . haiishh . any jobs ? laugh . yuzhen will be coming over tmr . ^^