wakeup this morning & found tat there is 5 msges waiting for me to reply & there is one i nvr tot he would msg me . its you youyouyou . changed & went down to vivo to meet sam . den after tat bused to her house & changed . thanks mama <33 FUCK BLOGGER . WAT I WRITE CANT BE POSTED

why am i feeling this way again ? i seem to be walking back to past . a past tat have been left behide longlong ago . idk how to explain it but i realize i have been visiting ur blog all these time even when we nvr even talk . i seem to be walking back . i seem to be feeling happy when you told me ur relationship with her was over . but it getting back again . idk wat to say . pls , i had a hard time getting over you & i dun wanna go back to the past . i dun even think we would have a new beginning ever again . idk why i still went to places we used to go & sit there for hours . thinking back all the memories , its just make my feelings coming back . i feel so lost & speechless . i wish to call you baby once again . but i know its all my foolish thinking . stay happy bah & give her happiness . wish you all the best .

prom photo too much le . so post on facebook . wan see den go facebook see bah
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went out with my sis today to orchard to pass my punch card & walkwalk . brought mummy birthday present , hope she like it . anyway , HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY !!! wondering how daddy will celebrate later . mummy say she wan eat crab . chili crab ^^ hope no dinner at home cuz i love going outside for dinner :x

FINALLY ~~~ prom is over . enjoyed myself today . omg .. everyone dress so nicely . i think mine simply sux luh can . thanks diana for everything & grats . thanks for the makeup , thanks for those ride & everything . hope you enjoyed urself today . & also , thanks weijie mum for helping me to do my nails . i really loved it . thanks alot . couldnt go to sleep ytd night think is cuz i always sleep so late . ytd very early sleep cant get use to it . wakeup at 1030 , perpare & go over to diana house . went there to prepare & stuff . we were like the first to reach the hotel . omg . but nvm . slowly more & more ppl came lah . the food was okay luh .. starting was nice but to the end , the food all sux lah . not nice can . took pictures but will upload some other time bah . not tired sia me now . audi-ing with qiaohui later ^^ tmr will be going over to diana house to collect my things . thanks alot sweetie . see you tmr ^^

went out with my dearest meihui laogong & samantha mummy ytd . cuz was quite a long time nvr meet them le . meet meihui & yewtee . sorry i was late & make you wait . train-ed down to amk to pass them to her stead de house . den go back amk hub meet sam . mummy , dun be so shocked leh .. cool down :D walkwalk den go bishan to meet meihui de stead . had subway for dinner . i cant wait to go malaysia again with mummy they all . i cant miss it this time . but i dk if i can go . den meet jun chin ( meihui de cousin cam my so call ' baby ' ) . MUMMY DUN SNATCH FROM ME LEH .. laugh .. joking lai de . went to V3 . its a thai pub lah .. nth much luh . denlyn ( dk got spell correct ) friend make me drink >.< vomit in the end . thanks meihui for the plastic bag . home bath & sleep luh . same sleepy . wakeup audi luh . found tat something happen .

i cant stop you from going over . but i dun really wish you would go over . not i dun wan . is tat there is someone there who i dun like . & he simply look down on me can . yah , i maybe weak . but so wat . you were once weak too right . dun be so pround of urself . one day , you will fall let me tell you tat . maybe you dun mean it , but it seriously hurts me . so wat if you are in a bad mood . i talk nicely & you reply me back in such way . i will prove to you , im not weak like i used to . even though i still cant win you but at least i have improve . i dun need ur comment . so keep it to urself . you know who you are . no need me to explain so much . pass fam master to me will make the fam lose face . i will rmr it .

rebonded my hair ytd ^^ was happy to see the result . den go back to school to take my prom ticket .. kuku lah . why they change the place to york hotel . so jiao de . no good no good . humph . but nvm bah . didnt meet diana ytd , sorry sweetie . den train to amk to take my contact lenses . so easy to wear luh .. dk why ppl need take so long to wear . some wear le drop , so wear le pain , so wear le cry . but only know i wear le , eyes get bit tired . maybe its the first time bah . ^^

FINALLY , I GOT MY PROM DRESS :) when to meet siti at cck den tot will be back home after meeting her but we went to town . haha .. wait for javier at redhill . funny luh . we was sitting right infront of him but he nvr see dao us & walk around the mrt station looking for us . den train-ed to orchard . walk around cuz javier wan shopshop . after tat went to far east . brought my dress dere . weeeee~~ thanks siti for helping me to choose & advice ^^ going to rebond my hair on tuesday . cant wait sia . should i go out tmr with sam they all cuz long time no meet le & ALL OF THEM OFF TMR . idk should go anot leh .......

WEEEEEE~~~ today no work . when to houkang to meet up with jiunjye & alex . den bused to sengkang . so many ' kang ' . blur si wo . den slack at alex house there till 10 den he send me to bus stop . have to wakeup tmr at 630 to pei korkor go his camp for wat family day . humph . i miss my sleep :( will i be meeting alex tmr ? idk leh ... :)

finally 2 weeks jobs was over . kinda miss the place & ppl over there . lots of stuff to do man .

1 ) get my prom dress
2 ) get a clutch for prom
3 ) rebond my hair by 23nov
4 ) get my nails done by 23nov also ( done )
5 ) facial to be done ( done )

so many things but so little time & guess wat , i have been chatting on phone last night till 5am . its been so long since i last chat on phone for so long .

GRRR .... dulan with my phone . keep dun wan give my com read so no photo today :( work morning shift ytd . was okay lah .. at first tot was scary . but in the end , its nth lah . haha . count the stock & stuff nia . thanks junjie for helping me to count . finish work & 6 den train to amk to meet mummy . FINALLY I GOT MY CONTACT LENSES !!! YES !! & also i got the face wash i wanted . thanks mummy . think next time i work morning shift better . cuz can go home early & i do have a good sleep ytd night . SI MONKEY !! you good . no banana for you . hate die you :x

dieing like tis teddy . sometime , human dun know how to cherish till they have lost it . just like me . regrets has filled up my life . idk wat to say , dk wat to do . i feel so lost being alone . i cant stop myself missing you . i cant stop myself to stop looking at my phone if i have ur msg . whole day , not a single msg from you . i feel ... speechless . maybe , this is the best for the both of us . istilloveyoubaby but i have to let go someday & i will . give me sometime bah .

today's work was boring . MONDAY NO PPL DE . can fall asleep anytime de sia . dk wat to post leh . but i feel smth weird from zhibin . maybe is i think too much bah . but if its true , im sorry to say i cant accept you & maybe i wont bah . its easy to fall in love but forgetting someone need a really long time . so , im sorry . i still cant get over my ex . if is i think too much , den is i ps luh . haha . laugh si ren le . hope tmr not too busy cuz im all alone tmr night :(

truth always hurts the most . idw to know anymore truth . i wont share the pain i go though . i wont talk bout the past , i will keep it deep in my heart . wat i do , i wont regret le . regret only brings ppl pity-ness . i dun need any of this . you dun need to feel guilty cuz i dun deserve anyone's love or care . im always i loner . no matter how painful it hurts , i will bare with it & i believe one day , i will walk out of it . hahaha . i realise wat i hate the most was wat im .
today's work was okay luh . sunday so quite alot of ppl . i saw my auntie shopping & she was quite shocked to see me working there . haha . today the ppl make me dame dulan luh . cuz i keep packing it back they go open . dulan sia . den stand till my leg got blueblack . kuku de . weak me . humph . after work pei zhibin for his dinner tgt with arh sam . thanks arh , arh sam for the meal . next time its our turn to treat le . had mac & home sweet home . need to rest le . tmr also got work . when den i can go shop for my prom clothes !!! & when can i rebond my hair + haircut & when can i get my contact lenses !!!